Pursuit Of Happiness

There isn’t love at first sight infact, I don’t believe in that. In my opinion its straight up crap. Well, I just learnt 2 believe in something new, I didn’t tink it actually happened but hey it does “Love grows”. That’s my new belief and that, I didn’t learn from any show, supposed love column or doctor. I learnt from experience. In summary, “I was… or am a victim of love”.

I did not just meet her, I’ve been seeing her around but I just didn’t think of saying hi, ok, I rili did not care. After a while, I got to say hi and hi and hi and even more hi. I guess we were way passed the “hi stage” and began talking, cracking jokes, taunting each other etc. Then, I realized she’s cooler than you thought, she’s fun, she knows you, she kinda makes you comfortable. I realized I wanted to hang out more than usual, I could never get her outta my mind, I was expecting the caller ID or the text msg that just came in to be hers. If I wanted to describe what I felt about her in one word, I’ll say “Gaga”. I didn’t need any therapist or councilor to tell me I was in love.

Was I actually gonna tell her how I feel? Would she be on the same page? Would I have to do a lot of convincing for her to go out with me? I guess fate put me in the right place @ the right time. I seriously do not know where the courage came from but, I told her how I felt. I told her d 3 words I dreaded most, d 3 words I tot I wld neva say…. “I love You”. I popped d question “Wld u go out wit me?”. I could tell she wasn’t expectin dat. She looked so confused, lost, kinda expressionless but giggled. It was kinda embarrassing for me but, I meant every word that came out of my mouth that evening. She practically interviewed me & in summary she said “u kno u gotta giv me tym 2 ansa”. Wow! I’m in love.

I kept doing what every person waitin for an answer does, “keep in touch and do your best to get a positive answer”. I finally got an answer after a long while, it was plain and simple, I literally mean simple. It was made up of 3 words… “Lets be friends”. It hit me so hard. Well, life doesn’t always give us what we want, it just has its ways of screwing us over. I paused for a while, ok a long while and finally replied “yup, lets be friends”. I respect her decision, I’m glad I didn’t hold back, I’m just gonna be a friend & the best friend u can find but deep down in my heart, I know I am still in love.

So, with my glass raised high enough for me to look just above the rims, I propose a toast; “To Friendship”…